Panic

I panicked twice today . Ewww . Hate that feeling . 1st time was during POA tutorial. I spotted one quite major mistake when I was doing the test at the last min . I was really panicked ! My hands were shaking so profusely until I couldn't really write, thus the words I wrote were really ugly . The feeling hadn't settle even when I passed the paper to the tutor , so my hands were still shaking when I passed her the paper . so embarrassing .

The 2nd time was before Jap speaking test cos I wasn't prepared at all . After meeting my jap class classmates, I found out that all of them had a script . My partner and I came up with the script at the last min and luckily we were the last second pair for the speaking test so it gave us some time to prepare . In the end we did quite well and sensei praised us ! Happy =D AND THIS IS THE END OF BASIC JAPANESE 102 !!!

But every time after panicking , it's RELIEVE !!

I'm soooo looking forward to the day all these shit end

There are tons of projects to do but I've started on none yet . I guess I will be damn damn damn busy over the next few weeks , I think . But given my personality , I'll still have free time even though I have alot of things to do . I think I'm having sleeping disorder recently . I sleep really late . And when I sleep earlier , I ended up sleeping lesser -_-

It's less than a month to Chinese New Year . I have this mixed feelings: Looking forward to it , and at the same time , not looking forward to it . Looking forward becos I will be able to take a break . Not looking forward becos Chinese New Year is getting less and less interesting every year .

I still remember when I was young , I love going back to Malaysia during year-end holidays . I would stay in Malaysia as long as the holidays lasted . There were so many things we could do back then . Cycle , catching , hide-and-seek , blind mice , role play , card games . But now , I'm lazy to cycle , lazy to run and relationship between my cousins and I isn't that close now as compared to the time when we were young .

最近又在想我的生活过得有点太安分了。好像没有什么爆点。我想过一些多姿多彩的生活，不想浪费青春。我不想变18岁。

In the midst of doing POA now . There's POA tutorial tmr and we are going to get back results for POA and MAEC common tests too . Totally not looking forward to it . I'm kinda afraid that my result for POA will turn out to be sucky . As for MAEC , I prepared that it will be bad .

Okay , I threw my POA tutorial aside because I wanted to upload the 2 korean songs . One of it by FT Island , the other one by F.CUZ . Both of these songs are very very nice ! Everyone should listen to it even though u're not a KPOP fan (hinting wendy XP)

[M/V] F.CUZ (포커즈) - Midnight Sun (미드나잇 선)

FTIsland Love Love Love FullVer Music video

Oh , it's 2011

It doesn't feel like a new year to me at all . I don't know why . It feels like just another normal day . Maybe it's becos the poly system makes me feels that way . A semester havent end nor starts . We're just halfway thru a semester .

After watching the Taiwan New Year countdown , I want to be there to celebrate new year . Although it's very crowded , I like the countdown concert . Everyone seems to be very high and I wanted to be there because I'm more into CPOP . Then I'll know the songs the singers are singing and sing along also .

Any New Year resolution?
- No . I'm not really looking forward . I don't feel that there will be anything nice which will happen this year .

Okay , maybe I have 1 wish . I wish that my guardian angel will appear and come into my life . It's not that I'm despo or what . I just want someone to be there for me . And of cos , that someone must be someone I want .