Is she moving on?

I'm back at this hour again .

Received a call from my grandmother in the afternoon that my aunt's condition is very serious . She needs the aid of an oxygen tank in order to breathe . My mum was the one who picked up the phone and she said that my grandmother was crying over the phone .

After receiving the call , I called my another aunt to find out more . She said that she was admitted to the hospital few days ago and her condition worsen today . They didn't want my grandmother to visit her as they were afraid that she couldn't take it .

Just now , I facebook-chat with my cousin who's in Malaysia now . He said that my grandmother kept crying . She wants to see my aunt but cannot , very ke lian .

I've been feeling very okay all the while until I saw this facebook status update by my one of my cousin

看了一则我阿姨寄给我的信息，我的眼泪又再不受控制地流了下来。她说"她一定会很努力地撑下去然后回家的"！我现在的心情真的不知道要拿什么形容词来形容。

My aunt once told me that my sick aunt told her she would recover and come back to Singapore to work again . I know that she's thinking positively .

I want to go back to Malaysia . To see her , to keep a look out for my grandmother . And lastly, can skip school But my dad didn't say anything abt going back . I didn't want to initiate it either . My mum would just end up saying “看了还不是一样”

Continue with what I was talking abt yesterday ..

I read from somewhere else that Pisces people don't quite believe in religious . They also stated the reasons why , but I couldn't rmb .

The music school's instructor and I took a facebook quiz together to see if we suit our horoscope from that website she recommended me to "like". The result of the test was I should be Libra if I didn't rmb wrongly . So I went to read up on Libra and I found out that I suit the characteristics of a Libra more than that of Pisces . Realistic, suppress feelings and easily scare .

I also read up on Virgo as my sis is a Virgo . I feel that she's worst than me . She doesn't suit her horoscope AT ALL . As I was reading , I was thinking "This is rubbish , don't suit her at all" . Virgos are perfectionists and they put in their best effort in everything they do . Once they start something , they won't give up easily . I don't see all these things in my sis . Her studies alone can prove it all .
I gave up reading halfway on Virgo .

brrrrrrrrrrrr it's cold in here

I'm feeling super cold now, because I'm sitting at a place where the aircon blow straight at me . I just finished my very-short japanese essay. I've tried my best to write as long as possible already. Writing Japanese essay always takes me more than an hour to complete .

This is the last week of my holiday, but I didn't accomplish as many things as planned before the start of the holidays . I'm too used to slack first, work later .

Things are still running smoothly during work . I don't like it when the boss is in the music school . I feel quite uneasy when he's around .

I have tons of books and dramas to read & watch , but I don't wanna start on any . I'll neglect the number of things I NEED to do if I start on that . I wonder why this kind of "stubborn behaviour/attitude" does not take effect on my projects and studies .

I've read up on my horoscope just now from a group in Facebook called the 12星座宝贝. An instructor in the music school recommended me to "like" it because the group posts a lot of interesting horoscope stuffs. But after searching just now, the Facebook group I found doesn't seem like the one she recommended . I read up on pisces, libra and abit of virgo .

I find that I don't exactly suit the description of pisces . The main trait of Pisces people is emotional. They tend to think a lot, which caused them to be very indecisive .
Emotional -- I don't think I'm very emotional . I don't cry easily .
Indecisive -- I'm only very indecisive when it comes to big decision that will affect my future. But after all I'll still come to a conclusion all by myself. Actually, every time when I have to make an important decision, I'll "sort of" have a preferred choice in my mind , but I won't know it until I've decided on that choice . It might be because I don't feel confident about it , I don't know . I will ask others for their opinions , but in the end I would go ahead with that choice , even if the comments don't support my idea . For example, in Secondary school, I fell out with my "bestest" friend and my choices were: to or not to patch things up . I've asked all those I could ask at that time and ALL of their advices were to patch things up . BUT in the end, I went against their advices. Frankly speaking , I didn't regret making that choice but after a very long time , I started to regret . A bit . That was when I became more mature and found that the reason to why we fell out was kinda stupid . After all , this is the process of growing up, isn't it? Becoming more mature and find that things we did last time were stupid.

Okay , it's 1.25AM already . I haven't complete this yet but I wanna sleep already . I will continue on this horoscope thing tmr or some time later . Goodnight !

Common test is over !! But there's nothing to be happy about . Tons of projects to do before school starts again .

I feel like taking up vocal course in the music school I'm working at . I can afford to pay for the school fees , but it means that I have to scrimp and save . I just want to learn something when I'm still considered a little bit young rather than learning it when I'm 30+ or 40+ years old . I'm still thinking abt it .. I don't want to pick it up alone ..

Torturous

This week is the common tests week . I'm done with AAA CT and now, I'm left with SOM and PMKT . I don't know why but I just don't have the mood to prepare for SOM and PMKT , so I have to force myself to study . It's so torturous !

CT--> Projects --> Sch reopens --> Final exam --> Holiday (but confirm working) --> school starts

This is the cycle of my life in the near future . I'm starting to feel that life is meaningless all over again .

I DON'T WANT TO STUDY ! Memorising things are just wasting my time and effort . I'll forget them anyway .